Reemality Bites

Everyday Dilemma!

2008-03-10T09:56:00.003+04:00

I know Dima will understand exactly what i mean!

How do you tell a colleague that:

1. He's stupid
2. He's not even 0.000000001 % funny
3. His laugh crawls under your skin and literally damages your nervous system
4. He's ugly
5. He's stupid. wait, i mentioned that
6. He is not your bestfriend, and still won't be in a million years

As GOOD as they get..

2008-03-04T10:09:00.005+04:00

I know I'm sounding like a pathetic hopeless romantic but that's all the action going on right now :S so don't complain..

Back to guy no. 2, the nice one, remember? So i made a decision that i wasn't really ready for anything serious, i don't like all the sweetness and i can't find a connection there..

until..

i met up with him last night and to my shock: the guy chopped his hair off! his hair! the hair he has been growing for more than a year only because i told him that guys with long hair make me gag! and I've known this guy for (embrace yourself) 2 weeks. ONLY!

I couldn't utter a word. All i heard myself say was "your hair??!!!!!" i was about to shed a tear or two.. i mean common, this was truely a cinderella story. i would never do anything to my hair no matter who asked! and there was "A" (yes. they have the same initials for those who know guy no.1's name) giving up his assets for me.

I can't possibly imagine what would happen if he ever found this blog. eek!

Anyways, so i decided to give him a chance and stop acting like a complete bitch with vengeance written across her forehead.

The EX Factor!

2008-03-02T15:51:00.011+04:00

Do you know how sometimes you walk out of relationships vowing the next one is going to be nothing like the first?

No more "bad" boys! no more bull shit! no more sleepless nights trying to convince someone that you were in the toilet and not on the other line cheating on him! No more standing in front of a mirror for a decade trying to decide if this is conservative enough for him! No more giving up your favorite coffee just because he doesn't like the place! and no more high heels on a daily basis just so we look "nice" walking together. GOOD GOD!

ok.. so normally, i should only be open to good men out there! men who shower you with love, don't fuss about what you wear and understand that life revolves around other people and things beside them! what's the problem? me!

I meet a man! the perfect gentleman! socially and ethnically, we come from similar backgrounds.. perfect manners, perfect attitude, perfect sense. Me? not so perfect. I can't help being turned off by all that! I'm in rage! A friend's theory states the following: "Reem, i think you could be diagnosed with the "he-screwed-with-my-head-so-much-that-I'm-mental" syndrome!" do ppl actually pass on their sick traits to their partners?! is it even normal that sweet talk sounds so repelling to me now? :S

I've become so aggressive lately that i literally scare men off.. I-shit-you-not that the guy who hypothetically likes me is terrified of me!

my friends find it hilarious and quite entertaining over a cup of coffee! Girls! not so funny.

sigh! i need Anger Management Therapy ASAP.

A SORRY NOTE TO SELF

2008-02-12T10:38:00.002+04:00

I'm sorry for doubting your strength
I'm sorry for all the vicious things you had to endure
I'm sorry you allowed them to constantly backstab you
I'm sorry you sank down to their level
I'm sorry you had to believe their lies
I'm sorry you had to give up your dreams
I'm sorry you gave so much; over and over again
I'm sorry you sang to them
I'm sorry you kissed their pictures goodnight
I'm sorry you celebrated their existance
I'm sorry you fell so hard, repeatedly
I'm sorry you had to cover your face with shame
I'm sorry you prayed to God- for all the wrong reasons
I'm sorry for letting you down

Thank you for walking out!